Face a fear

aangezichtsverlamming portret door Renee Heijneman

“ Bell’s Palsy ”

This week’s theme was quite literal for me, as I faced a big scare about my face.

On Wednesday morning, I woke up with the left side of my face paralyzed. My eye and mouth were hanging and it got worse quickly. I started panicking, was I having a stroke?

After rushing to the doctor with an extremely slow bus, I found out I suffered from Bell’s Palsy (facial paralysis).

As a very self-conscious woman, I felt so ashamed. Is this how my face will look like for the next few months? Everyone will see! The next few nights I was afraid to go to sleep, in fear that it would be worse in the morning.

Thankfully, I’m doing much better now and the meds are working! This photo represents how I saw myself, scared to show my face to the outside world. It’s exaggerated, as it was in my head as well.

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